Big Day!

Sugar Bean turned 1!

That is right my worst fears have come true. My baby girl is a whole year old. Cugli and I took the day off and we all went to the zoo. The weather was beautiful, and it was an incredible day. Sugar Bean had a little bit of a tough time differentiating between all the animals. Her new favorite words are Bye Bye and Puppy, so every single animal we saw, from Elephants to Emus were all puppies according to our big girl. It was really cute.

After the zoo we all went over to Nanny's house, and had some dinner and cake. We were all so excited to see her tear into her own personal cake, but in true Sugar Bean style, she made Daddy mush it first. She HATED having the cake on her hands and would make mommy wipe her off after every bite. It is nice that she is neat, but c'mon it's your birthday kid! Live a little! Here are a few photos of our cake experience.

Not quite sure what to do.

Now I have it!
Here Dad some.
I cannot handle this stuff on my hands!
Ahhhhh...Squeeky Clean!

Happy Birthday Beautiful Baby. Mommy loves you sooooo much!

Carbs

I am definitely pregnant again and all that apparently goes with it. My doctor called and said that my sugar is pretty elevated and that I will need to start testing several times a day again. I am thankful that is all that is wrong. Trust me, with as many things that call could have been about I am perfectly happy to poke my finger 4-5 times a day. But it just seems cruel. A pregnant woman not allowed to consume carbs. What is that?!

I am concerned all the stress with my job is taking its tole on my body. I have never had so many colds in my life, and the last time I went down the gestational diabetes road my sugar levels hovered around 100, which is a little high, but not crazy. This time, I am on the diet and I can't get it below 150. It is pretty well known that stress can cause this, but what am I suppose to do. Go on insulin just so that I can stay in a job I hate. I am going to talk to one of our supervisors today and see what we can do. Pray a little prayer for me. That everything goes well, and we can work something out.

So Big...

Last night Sugar Bean was sitting in her high chair and I was just watching my happy little baby as her feet swung back and forth. All of the sudden it hit me.....Her feet were touching the chair seat underneath her booster. Her long legs kicked and her feet tapped the chair. What happened to my tiny baby. She looked so big sitting there. Almost like........A TODDLER! (shudder). She also has started showing off at day care and standing completely unassisted. I don't think I can handle it. She seems to be growing up faster and faster. Didn't they say that development SLOWS as they get older?

She will be a year old on March the 16th. I absolutely cannot believe it has almost been a year since she joined our little family. I can remember the day I found out we were expecting her like it was yesterday. How grateful I was, how scared I still am every day wondering if I am making good choices for her. She is such a good baby. she sleeps incredibly well, she has an amazing temperament, everyone tells us how well behaved she is. I can't take even a little credit for any of it. She is just a blessing through and through.

I am torn between the baby I want to keep and the child I can't wait to experience. I think for now, at least as long as she is wearing footed jammies, and needs cuddles with her night time bottle, I will cling to my baby and take in every last minute. The clock is deffinitely ticking.