New additions....

This past Friday 10/23 Cugli and I welcomed a beautiful little girl into our family. Just like her sister, she made quite an entrance, at 9 lbs. 11 oz., and 20 inches long. Despite her being a sizeable baby, the delivery was perfect.

We went into the hospital for our 5 am appointment, however if I were to be completely honest we were about 15 minutes late. (C'mon people 5 am?) They started pitocin at about 5 :45. I was already dilated to 5cm so the hospital was very quick about getting me my epidural. I fell asleep, and didn't wake up, except for vital check ins by our nurse, until I started to feel some change in pressure at about 10:45. I told the nurse about the change, and she checked our progress. I was ready to push. They paged the doctor, and allowed me to start pushing. I pushed 3 times and they told me to stop be ause the baby was going to deliver before the doctor got there. Just then the doctor walked in, got in his gear, I pushed 2 more times, and she was out at 11:14 am. I am seriously considering a career as a Duggar, because it is apparent I am built for this. My mom keeps making smart remarks about delivering in rice patties and such.

The baby looks just like her Mamma did. She sort of resembles an elderly asian man, and we think she is gorgeous. Her big sister, is excited, but I can tell she is still sort of figuring out her place. She is very much a mommy's girl right now, and she is all about the, "mommy, watch", "mommy did you see me..." I am struggeling a little with this. I love both my children so much I can't stand it, but there is a small part of me, saying what did I do to her, that she now feels like she has to fight for attention in her own home. Home should feel safe and stable, but hers has been disrupted by a choice Cugli and I made for her. I know this probably sounds rediculous. I guess we all have to adjust to our new family dynamic.

Tonight, and every night for that matter, I am praying for guidance and reassurance. Any advice would be greatly welcomed. Prayers are even better.