Friday, February 20, 2009

Rest....

as I previously mentioned, it has been an interesting week to say the least. I have shed a lot of tears, and by a lot, I mean more than the average person should. I admittedly am a crier though, so it has not been that shocking to Cugli. You know...the hormones and all.

Last night, while my hubby was at work, I snuggled into our bed and I just poured it out. I talked God's ear off. There is not a person I have encountered that did not get a little prayer intervention last night. I weeped, I shared, and I couldn't sleep until it was all out.

When I realized what time it was, Cugli was snuggling in next to me with his long arms around me as tightly as he could get them. He smelled of work and deodorant (his half hearted attempt at cleaning up before he gets into bed). He kissed the nape of my neck and stroked my hair as he fell asleep.

I felt like God just reached right out of heaven and wrapped his love around me in the form of my big warm man. I felt like it was God telling me..."rest. I will take it from here." So I did.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Heck of a week.......

To start out this week seemed great. Monday my office was closed and I got to spend the entire day with Cugli and SugarBean. We had a blast. Then Tuesday it began.

I started having some serious heart burn over the weekend which is incredibly rare for me. I didn't really think anything about it until Tuesday when I went home for lunch. I was standing in the kitchen and that acid was so bad I thought I might be sick, so I headed into the bathroom where I saw it. It had been there for a little while, but it was staring me in the face today. For some reason I noticed it in the cabinet, when I normally would have just pushed it aside in my mad dash for Pepcid Complete. It dawned on me that the last time I had heart burn I was pregnant with SugarBean. I thought, what the heck, the darn thing probably won't even work.

But it did.

I came back 2 minutes later to find two not one, but two pink lines. Yes, you guessed it. The test said pregnant. I am having a hard time saying it even now. But all 13 tests after that one agreed. I am infact pregnant.

We had planned to start trying for another baby at the end of this year. SugarBean took us 10 months to conceive, so we figured she would be well past two when the next baby arrived. Not so much. You see since it took us so long the first time, we were ... not as careful as we obviously should have been, but were were not careless by any means. I know tmi.

I am still so stunned it doesn't even sound right coming out of my mouth or even out on the web. I am in shock.

Then to add insult to injury our company laid off 30 employees today. Nothing like a secure job when you are apparently 4 weeks pregnant.

I go for bloodwork today, so wish me luck, Also, say a prayer for my friends that lost their livelyhoods today. They need it.